Recently, I had a sort of "Break in my Heart and Spirit." Type Moment.
I had realized my Focus hasn't been on the Lord, I haven't trusted and held the steady faith in the Lord that I should have. I haven't taken the importance to heart, but I knew inside that I needed and need to make a change because after all, my goal is "Eternal Life." And therein, I decided the next big thing in my life needs to be my Submission to the Will of the Lord. With that being said, I had a few things in my studies come out that helped me feel more certain of my decisions.
The first thing that I had a realization is, is who is my Father in Heaven? I was listening to the Prince of Egypt Soundtrack. Primarily because i love the music and the messages in the songs are beautiful. But I also feel peaceful in many ways.
Something that crossed my mind was, The Slaves in the Egypt Endured much. We learn this in the Bible. And something that I thought about was, how much pain they went through to survive. Then the faith and trust Moses had to have in God to be able to carry out His will. I thought to myself then, Oh my goodness. The God that Freed the Hebrews is the same God that blesses me and frees me from my own trial and tribulation.
The 2nd thing that crossed my mind was, the Lords promises and His ability to free us. The ability we have to use the Atonement that because of the Sacrifice of His Son, Our Beloved Savior and Redeemer, we are able to be free.
The song in the movie Prince of Egypt- Deliver us. The Chorus really hit me hard,
"Deliver us
Hear our call
Deliver us
Lord of all
Remember us, here in this burning sand
Deliver us
There's a land you promised us
Deliver us to the promised land."
And I thought at the time, the Hebrews in many ways (Maybe not this exact song, but certainly the pain and suffering they faced.) They cried out, they pleaded with the Lord of a promise they knew was coming. They begged Him to Remember Them. Isn't that what we want? To know He remembers us? They put so much faith in prayers that they might be released from bondage and I thought isn't this how it is now?
It is the same principle of what He Gave us. He Sent us His Son Jesus Christ, so we could then be saved. Because of His Tribulation, Trial and Faith we can be saved.
Is the Atonement not a promise? Has he not promised us, he will "Deliver us from bondage" If we endure? Has He not given us a Promised Land? That we will then come too if we hold strong and believe in Him and let him take care of us?
Our Father whom helped Moses, helped Nephi, Mosiah, Joseph Smith and so many more, including each and every one of us.
He has this plan. And it wasn't until started to deeper look and think, and listen that i realized, it is the same God who helped then, who is helping now and will forever be our rock and stone. All he asks is we Follow His Son and keep His commandments.
And that was where I started to feel so blessed and more inclined to hold on and endure, despite the trials that I face.
He knows we are here. Just as He knew of all the Slaves in Egypt, of the struggles of the Lamanites, the Nephites, the Good and the Evil. He knows each and every one of us. And despite my imprefections, I hope to learn more and build my faith as time goes on, that way eventually I can be an instrument in His hands.
Alyssa
