When life gives you lemons....

Okay,
So I'm sitting in the middle of finals week. Yuck. My Math Professor decided to move all of our stuff up, so we have less time to do things. That's fine. Just have to figure out how to get everything done now. I have approximately 4 Tests this week, then my birthday, then 1 more test, than I can go home for Christmas break! Perfect!!!! Way Excited!

One of my favorite things about Christmas is giving gifts and the Spirit of Christ which dwells in the home. I think its amazing to watch the growth of the world and from the time you are a child to the time you become an adult you grow and learn about what Christmas truly is about. It's amazing how life changes and I am excited for the more!!!

Now despite finals and Christmas, some of the best things in life lately have been the hardest. I have sat and watched a lot of people in my life come and go. But it's amazing who walks into your life as people leave. Chelsie, a girl I have met here at college, is a wonderful person. Loved getting to know her this semester. She is such an example to the light of Christ and what you can do with life. On top of that, Like before, Courtney is amazing and has helped change my life. Without these two amazing people, My Savior and Father in heaven I don't know what I would do.

Well as far as life goes, that's about it. I guess it's how you look at life is that matters. When life gives you lemons... Throw em, demand a refund, make lemonade or squeeze em in peoples eyes! Just do whatever you think is for the best!

Have a great week!

-Alyssa

Sometimes life is difficult....

I know its really easy to go through life and just let things go bye, I sometimes am the type of person who wants to do that..... Waiting to hear from my sister, start my third job, second new job this summer and seriously! I am going nuts! Im going to try and get a car in August, I'm just ready to move out of my parents house again, be on my own!

I know it's hard to say, but everyone is thinking it! Sometimes life is just difficult...... but with our Father in Heaven and his son Jesus Christ, everything can be okay! :) I truly hope everyone is doing well! I just know that sometimes life can be difficult, it has been especially difficult for me the last few weeks, and watching some of my friends, it looks like its been hard for them too!

Hopefully everything will work out! Never give up! Never let go! :)

Everything will turn out fine!

Oh and if anyone gets a chance! Read 3rd Nephi Chapter 28 I believe it is, Either that or 2nd Nephi! Just read both! Amazing!

- Later!

Alyssa

Life is crazy.....

Worked crazy lengths for me the last few days. Working for my off clock boss. The last few weeks have been crazy and the next few weeks are also hitting hard. I've moved home, finished College with a 3.56 and pretty much been bored out of my mind. Luckily starting in two weeks, I start working at Maple Dell in the Cope Area, then I will move back to Ephraim to start my Second year at college!

I Can't believe how crazy fast everything has gone! Life moves so fast and though there have definitely been ups and downs, friends have come and gone, mistakes have been made, but amazing changes have taken place! One of the biggest changes that I saw made throughout college, was my immersion and change of appetite in the gospel as well as my appreciation. 

I went to the temple today after work. I felt strongly impressed and i'm so glad I did. I needed the ability to change things up, serving the Lord is one of our biggest chances to become a happier more whole person. My goal during the next year, is to turn myself outward and become a friend to all and less self centered. I want to be the person the Lord wants as well as given the opportunity to find myself and help those in need. The light of Christ will shine in all. 

I challenge everyone to through this summer be able to find a piece of you that is hidden. Give yourself the opportunity to grow and go to the temple often. Increase your strength and knowledge of the gospel. Serve someone else and make prayer and scripture study accompany wonderful temple trips. Let your testimony grow and I believe and know that your life will be changed. 

I hope you all get the opportunity to grow this summer. Good luck and success to all! 

Goodnight 

Alyssa 

This is a blessing...

I went to institute this morning and we talked about the parable about a girl and a bicycle.. A little girl asks her dad for a bike and he says that if she saves all her pennies she'l be able to afford a bike. Well one day she comes to her dad and says "Daddy! I've saved all my pennies!" So they go to the store, find the perfect bike, to find the little girl Sarah only has 63 Cents, while the bike is over $100. So she starts to cry and her dad says, Lets change our deal. If you give me a hug and a kiss and all the money you have, this bike is yours.

This  is kind of how the Savior works. He asks us to build a relationship with him and then we will be saved. He will bless our lives and fulfill and let us complete ourselves through his perfection. Something we can't achieve on our own. Very important and very amazing. I love this Parable because it truly is a blessing. This is a blessing. This opportunity we have to become perfect through him is the biggest blessing we have and the only chance we have.

As I sat in institute I thought about this parable, I thought about the relationship I have with my Savior and how everyone has their own individual relationship with him. I thought specifically of my Sister and her Husband and thought they have their relationship and one with Father in Heaven and the Savior. Just them. So many people don't believe that relationship with God and the Savior aren't important. Even for me, that at one time was a last resort. But today I sat their thinking about my Sister and her Husband.

In December they came and stayed with me and thinking back, they have helped show me that the relationship with God and the Savior and the Gospel is so important. Every night they sat down and read scriptures together. It didn't matter what I was doing, what my family was doing, whether they had time to really do that or not.. Whether my selfishness wanted to come in too play, they truly taught me something. By taking time to Read together I was thinking, wow... If it's important to them, its probably important all together.

I think Highly of Them and Courtney especially. One day I had texted her, telling her my plans to do something and didn't care anymore and was ready to take the jump to a new experience. I had with this situation talked to many other people about this situation and they were all very supportive. Except of Course Courtney. I knew what i was doing would be wrong but I didn't care until she said this. "Alright you can do that, and I'll still love you, but I WON'T Approve." You know that awkward moment when you realize you might possibly be wrong? Ha ya... That text changed my mind in an instance.

Since then, I have made many changes. But without certain people, my Family, my friends and Courtney and Jason and my Dad, I wouldn't have been able to see the important role the Gospel has and the crucial and vital point it plays in our  eternity and existence. The small and simple things are shown and may even change a person. The last 5 months I have made an extraordinary change in my eyes and how I feel. For that I consider myself blessed.

Alyssa

I can't believe it!!!!!

So I'm sitting in my room and just got back from class, I am sitting here in awe, I was talking to my mom and she asked me where I'm going to go to school after next year and I told her Weber State! Now Thats a year from now. What?! That's crazy! I mean that too! It feels like just yesterday I was moving into my apartment and new to being on my own and calling my mom 4-5 times a day. Now we talk maybe 2-3 times a week and I'll be moving back home in only 3 weeks! I can't believe everything has happened the last 8 Months- Just a little record of events--

• Moved away from home.
• Completing 1 year of College.
• Got a job for the summer.
• Got a visit from Courtney and Jason in December
• Courtney and Jason got married.
• I am referred to as a Success story from the school.
• My sister made and played on the High School B-Ball Team.
• Got to make some amazing friends!
• Get to go to the Manti Temple for the first time in 2 weeks. 
• Got to go to General Conference
• Made amends with myself.
• Improved my Psychological State by like 75%! 

Now that is a lot but at the same time not a lot. Great things have happened and it's only fair to truly focus on those amazing things! Planningly, those all are good and will or have happened :) Life is such a blessing! 

A Quote I heard that has truly helped me I stole from my sister goes like this-

"Stop telling God how big your storm is and start telling your storm how big your God is."

I love that quote, because its true! I have definitely made my storm run in fear thanks to my Father in Heaven and all the blessings he has helped me with! If you haven't heard the song "This" By Darius Rucker, listen to it!! Because That's how I feel right now, still have so much to happen, but where i'm at now, well I'm glad, because anything could have changed everything, but I am so lucky. Because I have the best family, the best friends, the best life in the world- despite the challenges I face. I'm happy, and So Thank God for all I missed, because it led me here to this :) 

Alyssa

Gotta deal with it...

A lot of people don't get who I am or why. For me, the biggest and hardest thing is trying to convince myself I'm worth something. At times when I get so frustrated or so annoyed and people look at me and tell me I look stupid or am being dramatic, it can be a self esteem dropper. This is mainly because I feel like an idiot and feel like maybe I would be better off as a hidden soul or someone who just wasn't there. Ya know? Musing on the idea of not existing can be a comfort. 

This happened tonight, but that's when I had a friend tell me that it is just the adversary. That Satan just wants me to feel the way I do. It's true. So many people are gonna think I'm dramatic, stupid, ridiculous, awful, selfish, angry, bitter and I guess it's come down too this. I just gotta deal with it. People are gonna tell me this is what i need to do, this is what needs to be fixed. This behavior has to stop. Some stuff obviously yes. But other things.. Its hard to make people understand the way I act or react is due to poor thinking and that isn't changed overnight. So when they say, you need to stop doing that... They are really telling me. "Alyssa, Stop thinking the way you think, so you can act the right way, the way you act off of the correct way to think." Haha that's a mouth full and reality is, that's the way it is. 

I have finally come to grips. Everyone has awful, stupid behaviors and things they do that bother everyone. What i have to do is just do things to please my Father in Heaven and let those people adjust to their extent and Ill adjust the best I can. Sometimes What is needed is to give a little and get a little. And for me, I think for everyone else, it would be best if I adjusted to what they need and what will help relationships with other people, than if I'm lucky im seeing, that people will adjust to me. 

Luckily, even if everyone hates me and hates my personality, God loves me and loves me for who I am. And that's I believe the blessing for everyone. Even if no one likes us, or likes who we are or how we are. God does and he thinks we are perfect the way we are. And I don't need anyone to tell me that or to accept me. I'm a good person and as long as I do and make God happy, everything else will fall into place. 

One less worry, one more happiness. Also Conference was EXCELLENT! 

Alyssa

Today...

So its 1 in the morning and I just got back from a Bonfire. Pretty legit, except when Caden decided he was going to start Blind shooting and then the cops wanted to show up. ha great! We got away though!

I guess I should put the real reason I'm up tonight, I've had a lot of things happen lately, especially the past year and  half. I met with Tim Dolan today, he is charge of housing and he told me that i was a success story. A Special Case. Meaning that I am one of the few students who started school in such a terrible position and am ending my first year in an amazingly high spot. I give credit to God for helping me, and to my best friend Caitlin, my family and my sister Courtney for helping me with that. All have been wonderfully supportive and given be the faith in myself I needed.

I want to just point out that the past couple years, though especially difficult on me, the people who walked into my life have changed it. Specifically one person. Courtney. I just want to make a brief note here, she gets married today to the love of her life. And something that sparked an amazing blessing in my mind, was before her bridal shower, she took the time to call me. A Very selfless person I can say the least. So if she sees this, I want to congratulate her and Jason and wish them the best in life and eternity. I wish I could be there.

Courtney is one of the people who has changed my life and one of the few people I am honored to call a friend and more than a friend a sister. God works in mysterious ways and for me, he definitely has given me the tools and the people I need to succeed in this life. I slowly am getting ready to take the next step in my life and start my work and move to Payson in June.

For all of you who don't know, God is there. And he will help you. All you need to do is ask.

One more congratulations and best wishes to Courtney and Jason Baguley. (Super weird!) haha

I love you both! Best of luck in life!

Alyssa

Fun stuff....

So In the effort of totaling sharing my college life, I thought I would share some awesome stuff from my Freshman year.

Me, Liesel and Victoria at Taming of the Shrew

All of us at Dennys at 1 in the morning. 

First Snowfall of the year- We went to play!

80's Dance! and Random people in the background..

Angie and Me sharing a skirt. 

Lets just go with it....

Alright so I started College 7 months ago. Yesterday my mom called me and said she couldn't believe I was almost done with my first year of college. Even more crazy is that I'll be done and have my bachelors in 3 years when i'm only about 22. This is crazy! Life is flying by! I'm going to be moving to Payson in June and everyday is a new adventure. Sometimes not the best one, but i'll be honest, that is life!

A couple days ago I asked my sister if I could ask her a question, she said "Idk, Can you ask me a question? Didn't you just do that?" haha point proven. She told me she wasn't getting any younger. Fact. We aren't getting any younger, so I've finally come to grips with some great points for everyone-

• Change- Its mandatory its life- Might as well keep walking. 
• Prayer- The best way to get the help that is needed from God. 
• Questions- ASK THEM! If you want to know just ask!! Life is too short not too!
• People and Situations- Guess what? both exist good and bad ... so what is my point?

LETS JUST GO WITH IT!!!!! We AREN'T getting any younger and life IS change. We will all face the good and the bad, so we might as well just get on the stupid horse and ride til there is no where else to go! Now that doesn't mean to be stupid! Be smart in your choices, but go with the change that comes and the people you meet. It will help. I am 19 and life has just gone by. One of my good friends/sister like person gets married this weekend and when we first started really talking a year and a half ago, i look back and can't believe how fast its gone! How fast living at home went, how fast a lot of my friendships went, how fast my primary education went and how fast my first year of college has gone. I can't even believe that so much has happened and to be honest we should all just go with it.

The biggest blessing you can truly have in life is learning to enjoy it. It is amazing what can happen if you realize that life is just a small journey. We are all riding the same ride and if we all just go with the ride, go with the flow and decide we are gonna be fine, we'll all be alright. We are gonna make it anyway. 

One of my favorite songs- Keep your head up by Andy Grammar- Says "Life is a journey, drop your worries, you are gonna turn out fine."

FACT! We just have  to remember that, we are all gonna make it through this,  hopefully positively. But we just have so much to do that wasting it worrying is terrible. 

Remember just to go with it..In the end it will be worth it.

Alyssa

Naproxxxaa what???

Alright so Just got back from Spring Break yesterday and all I can say is it was delightful!!! Got to go fishing! See my best friend, saw an old friend I hadn't in forever and just relax. I also go to get some work in and make some good money. Very delightful.

So I had some insight given to me today. About a weak and a half ago, I got strep throat and was super sick, the doctor prescribed me some ammoxicilin. (I think thats kind of right) haha, and some ibuprofen for the pain. Well today I was talking to Courtney about ibuprofen and I learned that there is a difference between ibuprofen/tylenol/aleve. Apparently, Aleve is Naproxen. And apparently if you take Naproxen and Ibuprofen together it will make you sick. I also learned that Ibuprofen in excessive amounts- (so taking a lot at all) Is bad for your kidneys and can cause stomach ulcers. Tylenol is Acetaminophen and Im not exactly sure what the difference that holds.

Haha so that is my insight for the day- Thank you Courtney for making me a little bit smarter with what I am putting in my body! Anyway, so recently I was reading scriptures and read a scripture about God looking and judging by the heart. Honestly.. that has become such a comfort to me, because if we look at the world, its something we know that no one is perfect. Everyone makes mistakes, but I believe that if we do what we are asked and even if we make mistakes, when we are judged by whats on our heart, we will hopefully have the upper hand.

So Midterms this week and its late, so I better go to sleep.

Goodnight

Alyssa

yes. Yes. YES!!!!....

Alright so I just have to post about this quick, because this is something important! (kind of) haha

Today was the BEST day I have had in a while. The HAPPIEST I have been in like... Idk... 3 weeks. So HUGE improvement. I just want to make it clear that I have definitely been favored by the Lord. I have to believe this. My mom and sister went out of town yesterday, so i got the car. ALL DAY. I went to my Doctors appointment- And though not amazing, Nothing too huge. But then got to spend time with Caitlin, and then Courtney texted me and we had a very empowering conversation. Shortly following that I went fishing, came home ate a delicious meal, then went fishing again, no worries about school or anyone, just doing my thing :)!

Now if you ask me, that is pretty much AMAZING! I'm feeling WONDERFUL, and EXTREMELY proud of how everything went today and whats a better way to start of my spring break then by Feeling amazing?!

Thank goodness for my Father in Heaven, because I know he set this up to work this way. I consider myself to be phenomenally blessed and will definitely be on my knees with a humble heart and a gratitude filled spirit.

Hope everyone's well!

Alyssa

This is it.....

Ya know that moment when everything has demolished and your life seems to be so horrible you just want to sit down and cry and cry and cry, but then the moment happens where everything starts to look up again? You know what i'm talking about... That moment you've been praying for! The moment that everything went down and now you are going back up! Well.. That's kind of what happened to me today.

The last couple weeks have been especially difficult, but something about today just made the last two weeks seem worth it. I have been especially sick  and today not only did I get much better and no longer contagious, but it gave me the opportunity to go get some work done and make some money. Shortly following that I got to go see my best friend Caitlin. Spend a couple hours with her and that felt pretty darn good, just talking to her. Another amazing thing, a good friend of mine is slowly approaching back to my life. Feeling pretty good, but even better because I have found that I am gonna be okay on my own if I need to be on my own. Point Proven here? God is watching out for me. THANK GOODNESS! :)

I know it sounds really lame, but when everything in my life fell down recently, the fact that it is reconstructing itself, well... It makes me feel pretty much amazing. The Grace of God is sufficient for all. This concept goes far beyond repentance. It is a daily blessing that has changed my life. It is a concept that it constantly being taught and boy I am so happy. The last two and a half week struggle is finally coming to a close. And to share quick, this is what I've gotten out of it-

• I am stronger than I EVER thought I was.
• Going to Class in College-- KEY and I mean HAVE TO HAVE for success!
• God is my best friend and he won't leave me, even if I AM Ignoring him. 

Smiling is the only thing I am at now. I am feeling great, relaxing. Now it's time to have a serious and wonderful spring break and prepare myself for something even bigger than my present... My Future. Bring it on world! For with God on my side and the strength I have recently found. I'm ready for anything.

Hope that wasn't TOO all over the place lol. Hope everyone's well!

Goodnight


--Alyssa

Face it.

Sometimes life just doesn't do what you want it do. You're friends won't talk to you, You can't seem to get along with your family, Schools and Work sucks, And you are doing everything yet you feel so beyond at the end of you're rope. Believe it or not, but it gets better.

It's hard to believe that when you feel so terrible and at the end of the rope that there will be and is some light somewhere. You can't depend on everyone else to make you feel amazing. You have to do it on your own. For me... That's a challenge and it always has been. I accredit nothing to my life. I am doing what I do in hopes that ill find what God wants. This can be an extremely hard concept when you think about it, because the world has you by your toes, and wants you to do everything to be what will make you likeable and popular or the best worker, or student or child. I think I have finally come to grips. I don't care if i'm likeable or the best or the most amazing person ever, because as long as im doing what God wants and doing all I can to make God happy with me, then in my book i'm fine.

Grasping this concept has been hard, but Face it, sometimes you just have to go with what life brings. I mean, what are you going to do? Not deal with it. Just fall on your face and give up? Many people do that but in my mind, giving up is just a way of saying you're wrong God, You don't know what you're doing, obviously you can't see how hard this is for me or you wouldn't do it, you don't know how I feel. No one does. Yet the Savior does, so beyond our comprehension and coming to grips we must remember that God doesn't give you anything or let anything happen you can't handle. If you give up that's you're choice. Because there is a way to get through it. I take that fully right now with what's happening in my life. No matter who is in my life, who cares, or anything. As long as I have my Father in Heaven and Savior my trials are very small.

I heard a quote once that said "Stop telling God how big your storm is and start telling your storm how big your God is."

It's true. God will handle it for you if you will just do what he has asked. You just have to try, and not try so much that you feel overwhelmed. Do ALL you can do. God will help you. He is happy with you and the small things you do that are positive. Even if they seem small. I take this especially if you do something that makes another one of Gods children smile or have a positive happiness. Doesn't seem like much. But I saw this a few weeks ago, where I had a paper swan my friend made me, I gave it to another girl in Sacrament and she smiled and played with it the whole meeting. I know it seems lame, but the Small and Simple things are whats important. And It made me happy and her happy. I have to believe that God saw that. And See's that everyone is trying.

Life is worth it! Just trust you're Father in Heaven.

Things will Work out.

Alyssa

Of course it is........

I just want to start off by saying.. Life is stressful.There is classes to worry about, bills to pay, money to make, food to buy, friends to please and family to deal with. So Can I just say... Thank Goodness for lemons, FHE food and ibuprofen. I also accredit all the reasoning behind this genius plan to God, for without him.. there is nothing good going for anyone.

Today I went out and met with Housing, making preparations on living arrangements for my second year at snow. I still need to go in and recieve my stuff from making the Deans List. For all of those who don't know- I made a 3.54 My First semester of college and 15 credits. Im taking 17 right now, and loving them all, except for math... Some of it I find to be rather easy, but even without the ease and prerequisites i have already taken care of, I hate FACTORING!!! Oh well... My point was made with the teacher and he has given me some extra days to fisnish it up. :) Thank goodness for attending class!

For everyone who doesn't know, I have recieved two job offers for the summer. Both Full time, Both pay for rent and i get income. It's also a blessing that with one job- My food is also taken care of and i can come home and spend Saturday and Sunday with my family and go to church and whatever else I need to do. Just a little detail, the first job offer is at a place call Ready Sales- I would be selling Pest Control- I see the advantages with this job, I get a good pay, Rent, Travel Expenses, but its also in Wisconsin. The other job is at a Scout camp in Payson where I will live 6 days a week and then come home on weekends, I would be doing COPE- Rope and Team work courses. I have yet to finish making my decisions, but I have a pretty good decision. Ready wants me really bad, they want to meet me and take me to dinner. I guess that's the way it goes.

I will keep you guys updated more on what i choose to do and more on what is up in my life now. The only other thing I can add is, I believe I have chosen a major thus far and that is Criminal Justice. I have a few places in mind, and I plan too go to attend either UVU or Weber State after I graduate from Snow. Both have excellent programs. It's been great for all the support and want to thank you all for helping me get up and out the door and into a new exploration of life.


Alyssa

And it was...

So I was sitting a couple weeks ago in church and had a little incident happen that I thought would be a funny blog post. But being myself not having a blog, it occurred to me I should start one! Not sure if anyone will read it, but I think it will be fun to keep people updated and informed over things not only in my life, but things I find interesting at all. So here we go.

Welcome to my Blog!

Perfect place to share my thoughts and cool little things I Find :) So hopefully you will enjoy it and see my posts as a little humurous as well as a little bit worth while and informative!

The last thing I will share here is a quote I recieved from a friend recently-

It goes like this

"When God is your reason to live, You never have a reason to quit."

I thought that was pretty insightful and very helpful for anyone having a rough time or just looking for an enlighting moment.

Anyway I guess this is the end of my first post!

Hope you enjoyed!

Alyssa