Lately, life has given me more than I have bargained for. This past Friday my car broke down, our fridge and freezer broke and we had troubles with our internet modems, so- you guessed it- no internet. I finally, I think, hit a breaking point and was super done with everything so when Sunday finally came and I was sick and in pain yet again, I was just absolutely finished.
Despite the irritation and illness, my Visiting Teachers came over and I just kind of had my little moment and break down to them. I hit a wall this past week and then it's where I saw the Miricles of my Father in Heaven come unraveled. Starting with those wonderful ladies, who truly helped me feel good and as they prayed with me, I started to have some clarity which I think led me into a big crossroad in my life.
This morning, my dad came and picked me up for work because of the lack of having a car,
I had a discussion with him about school this fall, and what I'm going to do. What do I do about a car, I am moving to a place that he doesn't know much about and moving to a place that is expensive and having no job lined up, I have been in the lightest of words, fatigued, unsure and stressed to have the experience .Despite those things I told my dad that I am in a contract for the fall and I am sticking with my plans. These have been my plans for months now and I am not changing them and I can't see how I could.
That's when I had an impression, a self revelation and the Spirit really got to me. The thoughts of things I could do to change my situation started to come and I had the most amazing change of heart and desire for my plans. And though it hasn't even been 24 hours, I knew without a doubt that I needed to stay where I am. Within hours of this realization I had my Job at Mapleton Elementary relined up for this fall, my Fall Contract easily and hassle free canceled, a car thought from my mechanic to get me running and the most amazing peace of mind that I can't even explain.
Some might think, are you sure you aren't just jumping into this? Maybe so, but with how quickly things changed in my heart, I had ended up making a decision and then I had a discussion with my mother following, and that is where I told her that I would not be moving. That is when she told me, "Alyssa, that is weird you would make that decision, because I told your Father this morning I felt that you shouldn't go to Weber." Wow. It brings me to a scripture in Doctrine and Covenents 6. It talks about Witnesses and today, I had a witness and in line with it, my mom had received the same witness. And what better witness could you have then from God?
I find this as a blessing and though maybe I will not be doing what I thought. And that is hard, but I know without a doubt that this impression came from my Father in Heaven and I am so excited to follow and see what he has in store with me.
As for now, I will be staying in Provo, attending UVU and will continue working as the Head Sweeper for Mapleton Elementary for this upcoming school year. I am beyond excited and can't thank my Father in Heaven enough for this guidance. For leading me to this impression and then making it fall into place so simply.
I have never felt more certain that I am where the Lord needs me to be and while I may not know why and it has changed MY Plans, I am optimistic that I am where the Lord needs me and that my life will follow the plan that he has in store and for that, despite the ambiguity, I cannot wait to see what is in store and where He will take me too next.
After all, without the hand of the Lord, where would I be?
Alyssa
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