Faith. . .

The past couple of weeks have been burdening and yet absolutely enlightening for me. Life seems to play tricks on you that way, right when I think everything is going good, my check engine light comes on, I get really sick, my financial aid has been a big mess, I lost my apartments Mail Key and then I think the worst part of it all, was I spent the majority of it complaining to my family and friends. 
It was the end of this past week, when I was absolutely just sick of everything. I stopped reading scriptures for a few days and was just in a rut and freaking out. That was when I pulled out my scriptures again- Despite my hesitancy- and continued where I had left off. While there was no deep answer inside the scriptures I was reading, I was overcome with peace and was able to fall asleep.

The following day, I was yet again reminded about my Father in Heaven's love for me. When everything that was going wrong and all my worries that were running rampant, were put to ease yet again. And I was put back into my thoughts as I realized. While I may not have had what i always wanted, I have always had what I've needed.

When our mailbox key reappeared, I was able to get into the doctors, my car was fixed and my financial aid was finally getting sorted out, I was getting answers and I knew, God had yet again taken care of me. A thought that i had, yet again let myself ignore.

Life is so crazy and it's in so many ways, absolutely terrible and yet I cannot help but feel that all I am and all I have and all I deal with, is apart of something so much greater than myself. These moments where things are so hard and frustrating, they create a sense of humility and submissiveness.

For me, it yet again reminded me of my Saviors sacrifice for me and my Heavenly Fathers love, I was reminded how important it is to read scriptures and to not let my frustrations get in the way of my day. It also showed me that despite my efforts not to be, I have let my trials become an excuse to be self-centered, negative and mean. Which all of these things I am so grateful for, because it's another chance to recommit and try again.

I hope everyone is doing well. And if you are not and you are facing your own inner trials and humbling experiences, I pray that you find strength in our Father in Heavens promises. I recommend reading the Book of Mormon and if those are not things that suit you, I pray that you find those things which bring you peace, happiness and strength.

Never forget all that you have. Never forget what the Lord has given you. For after all- He gave us His Son. Who at the end of the day- if you were the ONLY person to hurt, sin or struggle. . He STILL Would have done all He's done.

After all, when all seems lost. . . . There are still Two who love us perfectly. How cool is that?

Alyssa